Although I am nowhere near knowing who I am, I know this – there is no, and can be no, true fixed definition of myself – not truly, not right now. I am who I am supposed to be in any given situation. I can even be a different person in the same situations.
When I’m at home I’m lazy, but also helpful. When I’m with friends I’m loud and obnoxious, but also quiet and withdrawn. At Uni I’m stimulated and thoughtful, but can be bored, annoyed and frustrated. At work, the child in me comes out one day and the disciplinarian the next. In reality, I am a mixed bag of emotions, impulses and personalities, and it can be hard to keep up with myself most of the time. The person I will be on any given day is anyone’s guess. So where can people, friends and colleagues go to get assurance of the person they think I am, or the person I want to be? Enter Facebook. Besides chewing up all of my spare time and productivity, it allows me to create a profile of who, or what, I would like people to know me as. Am I a confident well grounded young woman with a good taste in music, movies, books? Am I smart/funny/addicted to shoes because a FB application created by some bored Uni student tells me I am? The real answer is probably not (except for the shoe addiction), but to the rest of the world, that is how I will be seen, that’s who I am, and that’s how they will treat me. Amazingly this is the kind of analysis people use as true insight into your being. A Facebook profile is like a first impression. If it presents you as something, anything – that’s what you are to the people viewing. Ultimately at this point, it doesn’t bother me if people see me as being one type of person, because I still don’t know who that person is. I’m in the same lost boat.
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Well done Kristina, very insightful. i like the last 2 line the best
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